DISCLAIMER: This blog has nothing to do with photography, it has to do with being a woman, a mother, an entrepreneur.
As I sit here trying to get caught up editing I find myself thinking about my current mood....so instead of editing like I should be I'm going to share. I've had a case of the blahs now for at least a couple of weeks, on and off for months! I can't help but try to over analyze why I feel like this. Some days I can conquer the world, other days I don't feel like doing anything but mindlessly scrolling through my phone. What makes one day so different from the other? Most people like to say it's because I'm a woman. Women are hormonal and according to a man, we cannot be made to be happy. We always want more. They say these things about us like it's a negative. I've decided today it's not a negative. What is so wrong with wanting more? What's so wrong with wanting the best for your family? The problem is it takes an enormous amount of energy! Whether it's having more money to buy the things we want, or to afford going to the places we want to visit. It's all exhausting! At the end of the day we're not only women, most of us are mothers. It's a mothers job to want more for her family. I've decided those days I don't feel like doing anything are because I find myself doing too much, or at least fretting too much over things in the future. That's the other problem with women, we worry too much. Half of my energy is used up thinking! Thinking about what kind of house I want my daughter to grow up in, ours is about to go on the market, one more thing to add to the list. Thinking about where I want my business to go. Do I want it to stay small so I can enjoy it as a "hobby" or do I want to make a living at it? I'm going to go out on a limb and say that most women find themselves pondering their own situations way too much and often feel "blah". I have to keep telling myself I'm not the only one in this boat. So for now I'll feel blah, and keep chugging along. One day I may find myself sitting in my dream house, with my dream studio, doing whatever it is I've decided to do. Hope these random ramblings will help at least one other realize she's not the only one who has ups and downs :) Feel free to post your own rants in the comments, I'd love to hear them!!